all that i've got

I need something else
Would someone please just give me,
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep,
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty,
So deep that it didn't even bleed catch me I'll..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

tings im sorry! comp was screwed up last night. talk soonnnnn! you shldve tkn a photo of tyk's bag at least thn you wldnt b in such misery haha. glad your mum liked kate spade!! told you she would! and are you wearing your fcuks in shanghai? take good care of them!! -warning look.

friday towned with tings -looks at her 4 bulging shopping bags and faints. a teeny weeny strain on the credit card huh. hahah funfunfun. watched amityville horror. freakingfreaking scary and sad show. poor little jody! or jolie or whatever. we were too starbucksy to be true. greentea+choc frappe PLUS oreocheesecake anytimeee :) our conversation by the window seats was swinging from depressiveness to crazed laughter. missing you already!
\ we said goodbye at orchard boulevard. shant be seeing that girl for a month :(

saturday was spent with stephiebeans (HAHA) @ majumall, hehe. we <3 coffeebean dont we :) was veryvery DreamLife! i like! yummy dinner after that too :))

ree says im fatgalz! >:(

hols are here! didnt feel like the hols till i woke up later than my usual freaking 5.45a.m on a monday morning. very much looking forward to uncontrolled-by-authorities lifestyle :) i say what time i want to wake up, when i want to go out, what i want to wear, what i want to eat, when i want to study! yayness!

gonna lunch soon.
partaking in the greatsporesale tmrw! whee :D

if you leave
dont leave now
please dont take my heart away
promise me
just one more night
then we'll go our separate ways
we always had time on our side
but now its fading fast

\ its 11.38pm now! finally done with my blog. haha its too green to be true. nette will not be very happy with me, i suppose, cos ths is her ahem's colour :| hahah but anyway i love it! getting quite depressed talking to tings online. SIGH. that aside, i <3 my mummy! :) been such a homely girl today.

so you stole my heart
and wrote me a ransom letter

am annoyed galzz
confirmed my worst fears
the anna sui sweet dreams (is it what its called?) miniminiatureS (notice the capital s) the nice countergirl gave me has officially disappeared! not to mention what an irritating day it has been. been really hungry throughout the day! why?? hungry wendy makes an angry wendy. why so hungry! made me so pissed. wasting even more energy being mad. argh, my blood boils.

at least i talked to ree
went to the girl's house this afternoon.
am sorry was hungry+angry galzz! hahah okok will stop it with the ah lianzz lingo. and my abercrombie's NOT ah lianzz okay. -shoots you an annoyed look. hope everything will only get better..HUGS! and welcome back to the cyberworld haha

okayy. seriously need to get back to studying. am too slothy to be true! :( what is this..TSK! im just so bloody annoyed with myself. shall go sleep or smth.

tings i miss you every fucketty bit! (pardon my vulgarity at this mo pls, exasperation is taking over me) sorry i missed your call! >:( mighty upset aobut it. hows shanghai and everything been?

grr. am off! angsty.

dreamy dayyy

i think i can totally reside in the school library :|
today was my most uneventfully peaceful day in sa..
nvm qt happy la. (of course, with jay ZZ in my ipod)
got loads to catch up on,
happily self declared the entire week to be school holidays
as in having a holiday in school.
am too lazy to be true.

SAMMIEKINS you deserted us (am repeating ths for the umpteenth time hahah)
quick think of another theme for our nxt outing!! :D :D
and i nvr do any bulging eye twisted mouth thingy lo!!
asked around and people just looked at me puzzedly.
no strangegalzz!

tsk, tings leaving tmrw.

Your Birthdate: December 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

hahahah.

sparrows outside the window

im totally immersed in 'jay-z' ness :D
blissfully happy and ignorant of everything
because i chose to ignore. and pretend a certain person doesnt exist and i did not hear what i heard

so, yay.

'jay z' rocks my world
hahahah
im such a cheenapok
thanks to the overnight discovery of his nice songs!
:)

ystd ws quite a nice day
half day and slacking at holland v crystal jade
charm+i overate as usual :(
need to implement diet asap pls!
everyones being so slothy and lazy recently
ystd sam, today jyingzz haha

okay la. lynette choong is nice..
meeting tings ltr to nan quan! hahaha -laughs.
:O
gonna miss you.

steph cheer up! :))
ree cnt wait to meet up!!!!!

mosquito bites and dew drops

had a fab weekend :)
fri ;
lunched with the sportygalzz @ hbfrnt pasta
then rushed back to pack my stuff,
met tings,
albeit her full shopping mode
got us so charged
bought lotsa yay stuff :D :D anna sui and zara kids rocks, dont they
got stuff for her sisters in shanghai too
YES, TINGS = NICE SISTER
hahah
watched The Jacket
its freaking, freaking good.
but the beginning was kinda psycho,
the type of scare that messes with your mind
but trust me, the ending was totally worth it!
we <3 adrien brody.. :D (who resembles a certain yk..haha)

sat ;
went to ac with her to meet sylvia for a while
erm, saw her yk.. :O hahah
lunched at fish+co (now that i think of it, our breakfast consisted only of percy pigs and marks and spencer raspberry and cream!) DOUBLY TRIPLY WHAMMY. YUMMY :D
rushed to kino to grab some stuff (again being the nice sister)
living up to our secondary school days again, hahah
was in a frenzy,
met up with hwing+kenny for a while (the latter was being v annoying as usual haha)
then hurried back to tings' apartment to grab my stuff
while that sleepy and dazed girl slept
i braved the storms (okay, the drizzle) to town and rescued sabrinanapok with my 60bucks
got nai's pres and scurried to downtown east
the entire journey was bursting with emotions and confusion i shall not elaborate, haha
but in the end we reached nai's chalet safe and sound (kudos to steph's parents)
and ate the MOST FANTASTICALLY TASTY bbq food
whoo. now me+steph know the secret!! shall not tell anyone else hahah

HAPPY HAPPY 18TH, NAI :)
we all love you!
meet up soon alright!

and though the bbq was again so packed with emotions (bitchfits),
we had a blast
sat on the cold+hard stone benches with our ipods, talking into the night and morning
nana and her fortune telling :|
dew formed on us!
the talk that night got me thinking lots. (shall not type it all out and be emogalzz)
and i was so depressed that i wanted to die while doing math ystd (no, for the first time math wasnt the root of the anguish) but was texting steph and we went through everything together,
and now im just so glad
:)

sunday ;
was spent @ home,
catching up on sleep and busy being depressed
haha

today ;
might be meeting tings and sylvia for lunch ltr
i better study!!
:|
school.

anw wht happened to my fellow sportygalzz
was the meetup today cancelled or smth?
i miss laurraine the ah liansxz and her chitchat, lynette_choong and her sleeps tht crack us up, jyingzz and her endless mockery and charm and her hamsterness already! realise am going to school quite happily now because of the existence of our ahem sportiness which brought us together haha (OKAY FINE im the only unsporty one :(

long entry!
hope everything will be fine

\ friends. im just so glad,
they get me through everything
thanks guys :)

youre such a sucker :)

i <3 cute without the e!

anyway that was random.
so :D today!!
met up with tings and everything was nicely normal
normality is bliss sometimes
hahah
and even though we got conned at sushi tei :|
the lumpiness and pudginess..!
AND ahem, i only had 4 wrongs in the econs mcq test which i jst did! teehee, never cheat okay!
and
long weekend coming up,
yayness! :))

goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything i thought that i knew

am super bloated.
ate damn a lot today (whats new)
diet plan starts TMRW, i insist :(
am such a procrastinator!

am so worn out.
been rushing homework and what not
foresee self-declared breaks coming up

am currently completely detached and weirded out
i hate my life,
i need something nice for a change,
feel like im perpetually stuck in a rut.
even retail therapy didnt cheer me up (w hwing just now. were both too stoned to be true -yawn. MISS YOU THOUGH! and ive missed out so much :((
am so sleepy,
hv no idea what im saying (damn ipod takes such a bloody long time to charge >:(
BUT
people disappoint.
and they scare me sometimes
when i realise they could have hidden agendas and stuff.
okay, blabber.

pardon my incoherance.
ugh, feeling vvv pukish after all that food :S

dada DADEEDOO thanks for your shoutout in your purplesand HAHA miss you too :) nice seeing you today, dsf!

mlene SO! happiness for a change?? haha im not morbid galzz okay! haha and thanks for your postcard, must appreciated. <3

theres a lack of colour here

:(
i dont have enough time with the friends
i dont have enough time for math and geog and econs and lit and everything
i dont have the impetus to gravity defy..

totally emogalz.

update is complete.

today was a .. pleasant day :)
lessons ended early, holland v-ed with man + hammie
hahah.
had fabFABFANTABULOUS latte
good music
studied a bit
talked
pored over teenvogue

DREAM LIFE!
:D
mm day pls! :)

sigh,
tmrws The anniversary day.
jinx day! :(
need ALL protetection to ward off curses and evilness.

but anyway, after leaving holland v
i came home and did 2 essays
so im practically dying and my brains are all fried and shackled.
worn out (and hungry, as always :(
got so distracted blog surfing !
what is this..
multi tasker #2
(the championship title belongs to laurraine the ah lianzz..and whts w the split personality! using fictitious name! ahhah nvm i love you all the same AWW :)

steph CHEER UP! lovelovelove. will msg you. keep habitually msging your other number :|

\ such a pms-y night.
am very annoyed, f i hate school.
I WANT ST NICKS!
super slack, happy and relaxed lifestyle
with no irritating and bitchy school system out to get you
piles and heaps of homework that actually has to be handed in
tings + steph + ree + everyone i miss youuu :(
PMSING.

if you leave

# disclaimer's note : the above entry has been edited due to remarks from gbk signers ;) hahah.

++

today was a rather eventful day,
hahah
had to at least mention something about this day!

thought it was gonna be quite a ruined day
but it turned out more than quite alright
in a strange way

i dont think im talking sense
but i cant say how it began,
just little random stuff that i did today
and it all pieced up quite well

had a very nice talk w steph last night :)
cldnt have done it without you, bitchy galzz. haha
then thr ws the taping oc drama rama..
the brand new 3 in 1 machine has been sitting in the living room since cny
and not single family member knew how to operate it
and cos one of the functions ws to record shows and we decided to be adventurous and explore the machine somehow
and oc ws beginning so my sis was in a fluster to record it
but in the end tht silly self deluded girl was taping some malay programme..a group of people sitting there singing and playing the kangkong or something :| and she happily told me it was marissa and co. fainted.
but alas, ahem ahem, i managed to find a way to work it
and tadah
merry chrismukkah!
haha.

anyway. today my voice kept giving way in the morning
huskily trying to find mr lee with charm hahah (charm is a person btw. not literally charming.. |: omgosh jst realised its such a pun-infested day. Food Friend! hahah priv joke)
and i huskily got out of doing pe too
sat there and watched the class play soccer
highly amusing, stomach was wrenching as i laughed!
and then i was the bib carrier
happily being mocked at as the maid la. wendy, stand straight! now courtsey? ooh, she looks like lady in waiting. thanks ah. to think i folded their sweaty and wet bibs!
hrm, then had lunch with nette the school food gal at heart
haha SILLY SAM and her jelly.
anw left WITH SIM JIAYING to meet karina at harbourfront
towned, wandered about. tried weird unfitting clothes like some frantic lunatic in a frenzy
then ERM, went to watch cj vs sa hockey @ SMU (right, we managed to catch cj people hugging each other with joy)
and headed for, -drumroll..THE PRATA POSE!
tht ws whr i had my first FRENCH PRATA (wow! -rolls eyes.) and karina cldnt stop laughing at all, my fantastic prata..
then we started talking about worrying stuff
and got so freaked out in that
stupid life changing prata pose
after which we, shall i say, EXERCISEDand it was one exercise i enjoyed the most in my life
:)
okay, we walked along nassim road (the 400bucks estate in monopoly, singapore)
and talked about all the stuff i nvr thought i'd say to these two mere STRANGERS
haha KIDDING. i mean these two DAHLINGS
seriously it nvr once crossed my mind whn i saw them wandering about in st nicks
that i'd be doing such stuff with them one day.

how strange everything eventually turns out to be
okay long entry
ive been like,
beating around the bush.
hahah, imagery! i suddenly had this image of myself whacking some bushes :O
okay self entertainment + monologue..

ele called :)
am having quite a nice conversation with YINGZZZ
hahah
the simple things!
okay okay. strange mode.

good sleep, all! :)

yingzz added your name alr lahh..hahah tsk, people purposely left your name out so tht others wont start rumouring yellow+black bag again what! haha kd. i jst plainly assumed your name popped up somewhr. and dont you just like my changes! hahah i dont care, its such a chio name siazz! -chuckles.

sabrinanapok i knowzzz..and you too okiezz :)) LUBX CHOO yknw. hahah. WHEN SHALL WE MEET UP! enough about your changing-before-meeting-us business i tell you!!

laurainne the ah lianzsx AH MAN! you silly galzz lo. i really think its the chlorine from the swimming pool! polo = jinx! stay away from it!! hahahah. im like, laughing to myself. anyway, poor galzz!! hope you get better then you can join us foodies in eating fab food (wah overflow of alliteration haha) without feeling guilty! -hugs :)) and SHALL WE MAHJONG @ SENTOSA VERY SOON..we planned like eons ago..such a sadly deserted important plan

okayy, i shall let the cat out of the bag..
i edited this entry on sunday 8th mayb 6:39pm
and i shall blog now cos im too lazy to start in another post,
hahah
sat was spent with the stephie bitchie
who slept away most of the afternoon, that tired galzz
and we studied like, DAMN A LOT i cant stand it LAHH..
haha. was sacarstic, if you didnt notice

then we went SHOPPING
damn teehee
i love the nike @ ps!
dont we?? (you better grow out your hair and snag that p.o.s bag i tell you -death glare. no more TRIMS.)
:)
love that babe <3

tings, hope youre having a fab time in msia
next weekend alright?
the strange land us strange galzz are in,
hahah
misses LOTSA!

shouldve couldve wouldve done something
but i dont know what

am very angstygalzz! (yes i knw hw preposterously crazy the previously only-for-fun-between-the-sportygalzz ah lianz lingo has now conformed into a habit)
typed a whole chunk and poof, all gone.
>:(

i thought i lost you somewhere
but i realise you never ever really were there.

o1. dont really like my medicine very much. hate hate hate cough mixtures! and its pink! eew.

o2. should really stop food binge. -looks at char siew bao and soya milk.

o3. have lots of essays halfway done, should stop surfing net and doing crap such as this.

o4. copycat jiang skipped sch too, shes studying w nanapok. yellow+black bag galzz mia in school HAHAH.

o5. cant believe sam went to school with her bloody gums and swollen eyelid! poor girl. unclear vision musta gotten to her.

o5. am feeling a lot better now, as compared to ystd. steph i think i ws too much in a daze to be aware of wht i ws babbling abt ystd..cant believe we didnt exchange gossip or talk about -. i realise now that i cnt rmb wht we were doing?? the raging headache musta retarded my thoughts. (centrestage was fabfabfab)

o6. yay holland v w tings tmrw :) we are the poddie mini familyyyy..

o7. and everything should end here. move onnnn.

i feel fine and i feel good
i feel like i never should.
everytime i get this way
i just dont know what to say.

hwing i miss youuu.
(not lesbo-ing ah. platonically! ltr k kill me :O hahah)

am sickgalzz :(
throbbing headache, stuffed up nose and sandpaper/desert throat.
hrmpf.

and i remember the last time i was dying like this,
you were there.

okay whatever.
gonna see the doctor now :((

update agn ltrrr.